Some good news

So yesterday I took my daughter to hospital to get the cast on her left leg changed because she cracked the heel. And I was talking to the surgeon who was doing it about amputations and the consultant that I am being referred to.
Basically the consultant I am seeing will hopefully do it as long as it is an informed choice, so with a bit of luck I will be having an amputation. It is now just a waiting game...yay.

But it is very odd as I am immensely excited, I feel like I should be upset that I will be loosing my feet and I suppose part of me is but then at the same time I just can't wait. The thought of being able to sit without being in pain, to be able to walk without having to stop every 10 minutes, to be able to run around with my daughters, to be able to exercise, to walk unaided, to be able to walk to fucking toilet at night without stumbling through the hall way or falling over and breaking tables (my daughter wasn't best pleased when that happened as it was her table). I just can't wait to be able to get on with my life. Plus at Halloween I have the perfect costume opportunity, if I got a couple of wooden stumps I could be a pirate or if I get a set of blade prosthetics I could be Oscar Pistorius (my wife's idea).
It has helped that everyone I have spoken to about the amputation, friends and doctors, have agreed that it is the best decision. It is nice to know that they will be there supporting me. I haven't spoken to my parents yet, I think I am going to wait until the operation is booked.

And I know it's not an easy option, the recovery will be hard but it will be worth it.
Also me and my wife have set a goal. I said a while ago that I wanted to do the London to Brighton bike ride but I was not able to as riding a bike is too painful. So once I have mastered the art of prosthetics that will be what I will be aiming for.